Big News!!!

Well, it's the middle of the night and I'm blogging. Just couldn't seem to shut my brain off tonight.

It's time to share our wonderful news!! In 142 days ( give or take a few days), our prayers will have been answered. We're matched with a birthmother that's due June 17th and we're getting a baby BOY!!! We've known about this for a little while and have already told family and some friends. I couldn't just all of a sudden just post in the middle of our story that we were getting a baby. I had to tell the story of how we got to where we are. Why we chose adoption. When it comes down to it, we probably could've kept on doing fertility. We were just done. Not with just the medical procedures and shots, but emotionally and of coarse the financial part does quite a number. Going through that roller coaster every month wonder if maybe, just maybe it worked this time. We chose adoption because our dream was to become parents. We want to be a family. Plain and simple. By choosing adoption we KNOW that this will happen. It wasn't a last resort for us. We chose to close one door and open another. We started the whole adoption process with rose colored glasses. We knew about the financial strain that adoption can have which is bad enough, but the stress of it all can really take a toll. We know that this isn't the only child that we want to adopt. How will we be able to afford another $20,000 or $30,000? It really makes me wish that we had never done fertility at all. Not to mention the side effects that I'm STILL having from the hormone drugs that I've been off of for almost a year. Adoption adds a fear like nothing I've ever known. In Kansas a birthmother has 12 hours after she has the baby to change her mind. I thought flying to Spain to have a donor egg IVF done was scary, but this is by far is the most nerve racking experience we've ever had. We've gone to a couple sonograms and we've watched the baby stretch and just wiggle around and I have such an incredible feeling. Like when you fall in love. It happened just like that. We just want everything to be perfect for him and his birthmother. Because if she hadn't chose us for parents we wouldn't be sharing this wonderful news! We are truly blessed to have met her and have her as part of our lives. She may never realize the extent of our gratitude.

When we first started the adoption process, we took a class and there was a video about open adoption. Until then, we had only read a couple things about how it worked. Going in from our understanding, we would meet with a birthmother a few times, go to some doctors appointments, and exchange pictures. This video painted an entirely different picture. They met each others family, the birthmother came to all of the family events and they even went on a road trip together! It definitely opened our eyes to what all open adoption could entail. Every adoption is different and I've read that some birthmothers close the adoption after some time. I can honestly say that I hope this doesn't happen with our birthmother. Of coarse that's always her decision.